Borrowed Ghost

I’ve walked out on myself before Left the lights on, closed the door Chased a silence, called it peace But all it did was let me leave I always ran when I felt small Blamed the mirror, blamed the wall The fault is a borrowed ghost The fight is a hollow boast But there’s a voice that I can’t drown Soft at first, but it’s growing now This time I stay I won’t disappear when the dark lands closing in This time I stay Even when doubt’s got its hands on my throat I’ve built up, I’ve burned out, I’ve broken down But I’m not walking away Not today This time I stay There’s a cost to the breath that we take To stand our ground until we break Change is slow and sharp as wire But those wound can spark a fire So if I shake, I shake and rise up No more living in disguises This time I stay I won’t disappear when the dark lands closing in This time I stay Even when doubt’s got its hands on my throat I’ve built up, I’ve burned out, I’ve broken down But I’m not walking away Not today This time I stay I’m done with running shadows I’m done with hiding tracks I’m turning toward the daylight No more looking back This time I stay I won’t disappear when the dark lands closing in This time I stay Even when doubt’s got its hands on my throat I’ve built up, I’ve burned out, I’ve broken down But I’m not walking away Not today This time I stay Unafraid or afraid This time I stay